Yes, i purposely post blog after 12am .
cause it's 9th.
School was fine,project on going .
meet my dearest zhenyu ah bi after school. <3
Shall meet up soon again kay!


Family problem .I'm 17 going 18 this year .
And i still have curfews .
i know mummy care much for us.
that's why don't allow us do this and that.
can't go home late .
friend was saying, why you don't wanna run away from home and let your mum know that you want freedom ?
i told my friend, yes, i did think of that before .
but i know i've to respect my mum .
that's why i did run away .
but i hope mummy know that,
i'm 17 years old already .
not 7 years old.
i just want a little freedom .
and that's all .

• Relationship .

We've been quarreling almost everyday .
recently months .
yes, the problem came mostly after you work ?
i don't know .
Starting,i may not really happy with you working .
neglected me .
i really felt unhappy .
but after that , i know .
i must understand you , you working, you earn, you're tired too .
but i hope you understand that, i'm real bored at home too .
i didn't text anyone and quietly wait for you end work at late midnight .
but, we can't prevent quarrel .
1st,2nd months , sweet and lovely .
3rd,4th months , we had our first quarrel .
indeed , we broke up at around 4months plus .
felt sad when i know you went in a relationship with someone when we just broke up not long . real sad .
when i told you i wanna be friend with you , but i know that my heart doesn't think so .
so, we talk,we promise to change for each other , and we went back in a relationship after 2 months .
cause we believe that we still love each other deeply .
5months plus, 6months ,
well, quarrels and sweet moments we have ,
promise to change for each other ,
but , i guess we didn't .
You jealous that i'm close with guys .
i don't meet up with you .
and, you've your mindset , i've mine .
quarrel was messy up .
7th months ,
Quarrel was hardcore at this months .
quarrel constantly almost everyday .
yes,i felt irritated and started to give you attitude and much more .
why can't you understand me .
and what i want .
and , when you say wanna meet up and talk, do you know why i don't want?
because all you did is say what you think, and think you always right .
so what the point of saying what i think and how i felt?
i remember you asked me, it's that you treated me too good at the start, that's why know i like that you for granted .
heartbroken once again when i heard what you say .
yes, i may take it for granted, but felt sad that, you actually think i was like this .
well, no comment at all .
i asked for break up, 3times after constantly quarrel this month .
not i don't love you or feeling faded , when i told other that my feeling had faded .
is just that, i really very tired of quarrel .
and we seems to drifted apart, when you don't think so .
you say you wanna quit this job for me .
i don't want you to quit it the reason it's because i don't want your friend to think that, you because of your girlf you want quit this job.
and i really mind alot how your friend, and family think and they really stress me up alittle .
and when you say you wanted to meet my elder sister,
actually i don't want , but you insist of meeting.
although i agreed to to it, but actually i'm not happy at all .
i'm not well prepared to let you see any of my family member .
but i didn't told you .
and friends, i'm drifted away from friends too .
many of them ,
cause they say, "eh, i don't want talk to you liao lah , later your boyf jealous this and that .
you see, that the reason why i drifted from friend .
you jealous when i talk to guys , my close brothers,
but, you think, what if i jealous when you talk to girls, your close girls friend . and don't allow you talk to them .
don't you think it's ridiculous?
i'm really tired of all this .
and i asked for break up.
you hold me too tight .
i want freedom .
my family had already gave me curfews, and don't allow me this and that.
i don't understand why my boyf did this to me too ?
i know it's my fault that i've no time to accompany you .
i hope you understand .
you think about our future?
seriously , too early.
our r/s now just months, and not years.
i know you love me lots and you think that far.
but i don't .
i don't think about r/s future .
cause we won't know what will happen tomorrow .
i don't believe in forever .


9th feb .
8th monthsary .
don't know whether you still remember it or not .
since you are busying with lion dance and work recently .
i posted also don't know whether you will read it or not ,
just wanna write down how i felt .
i just wanna tell you,
one day . when we really broke up.
the reason will be i'm tired of quarreling .
not i doesn't love you anymore .
i still love you always .♥

♥